Thursday, October 2, 2008

I just wanted to say that I haven't died.

I haven't blogged in a while, but it's because I've been stupid busy. Sadly, none of my busy-ness has been blog worthy. Just the whole working full time, trying to be a (pathetic excuse) for a wife, a mom to a perpetual motion toddler, and actually trying to rest. It's not really working, but whatever. It's just a season, right? Right? Right.

I'm feeling a little cynical today. Like, I just want to sit on a bench sipping a cafe mocha and just talk complete smack about every passerby. It's probably not healthy.

I've gained 6 pounds since I stopped nursing. I'm pretty much hating the baby gut right now, but not really enough to actually DO anything about it.

I hate that I've been in such a bad mood the last few days. Andy's convinced that I hate him. I don't. I'm just in a bad mood. I just want to crawl into a dark quiet hole and do nothing. Not laundry. Not dishes. Not changing poopy diapers. Not returning emails. Not going to meetings. Not calling clients. Blech.

I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that we haven't been to church in like 6 weeks. Actually, I know that has a lot to do with it. I'm really excited for Sunday. I need some good worship and to actually SEE my friends rather than read about their lives via blog. I need a girls' night. I need a good cry. I need to quit eating so much d***n chocolate.

I'm totally whining. I'm okay with it.

9 comments:

Brianna Heldt said...

SO glad you haven't died.

Have been meaning to email/call to make sure it wasn't MY phone that cut out on our conversation the other day. It was great to talk to you, as always.

I miss you.

Wishing I could come have a girls night with all of you.

Sometimes I feel the exact same way you've described. Hang in there and you're awesome!

(I keep meaning to ask, does Andy have a John McCain sign out on your lawn yet? His brain must be on overdrive, this being an election year and all! :))

Kristen Borland said...

and you're honest, which is awesome. sometimes i get wrapped up in feeling overwhelmed, and the thing that gets me the most is that i start to think i'm awful because i feel that way and that NO ONE ELSE ever feels that way, which is a big fat lie. so i totally appreciate when people are honest about how they get in a funk too and that life isn't always all rosy. so thanks for posting. :)

Lara said...

Yes, Yes, Yes! =)
Wouldn't it be wonderful if it were okay to just be grumpy? If only it didn't affect my kids and my husband, because sometimes I just want to be grumpy!

I need a girls night too. Wanna plan something?

Jeannett Gibson said...

No Brianna, it was my stupid Go Phone that cut out on our conversation. I just didn't bother calling back because I figured it was just going to do it again. Just ordered a new phone today...so we should be back in business soon!

And no, no McCain poster on the lawn. Although between the election and this whole economy thing, Andy's head is spinning. It's really interesting to be a couple whose income comes from the housing/development market and aerospace...suffice it to say that who is in office can surely make a significant difference in my bank account! And really, how on earth did you know that it would be a McCain poster and not an Obama??? HA!

And yes, Lara...lets. We'll plan something...and have Brianna come via satellite...they do it for the Oscars all the time right?

Joanie said...

Oh, thank you for being honest!

Jacquelyn said...

I feel your pain ... really. You sound like you need a break, a nap and a date with your husband. I always get out of sorts when I haven't been able to go to church. It seems like my quiet time and all my social relationships kind of start to stink after awhile because of it. I'll be praying that God blesses you with rest even if it's not the sleeping in until 9:00 on a weekday kind!

Rachel Slagle said...

you are not alone. i go through those phases too. i usually find myself hiding in the bathroom with the door locked to escape for a few minutes of peace :)

andy gibson said...

No Brianna, no McCain sign yet. But after last night, and Joe Biden's bold yet unsubstantiated statements upon which he basis politics, it's likely. Like, "If you don't understand what the cause is, it's virtually impossible to come up with a solution. We know what the cause is. The cause is man made. That's the cause. That's why the polar ice cap is melting." I didn't know you had a degree in climatology, Senator Biden, or that all scientists agree on that making it fact, Senator Biden. Idiot.

You're full of poop (I have a harsher word, but this is Henry's blog) if you think that.

I decided I hate him, while I only dislike Obama. So I will be acquiring a sign....I wish I could get one that said Palin/McCain, rather than McCain/Palin.

Back to our regular programming, Jeannett's going to be mad at me for flaming her blog.

Jacquelyn said...

Amen Andy! If I could find a way to manufacture a Palin/McCain bumper sticker I'd send you one :)